You're My Bittersweet Penance

Aatish
You either didn't think of me, or you just didn't care.
and I can't decide which is worse.

Life often takes unexpected drastic turns when everything seems to be going right, only to break you apart. Mistakes happen, and many of your decisions are proved wrong when destiny slaps you right in the face. But is life all about second chances? People say destiny always gives a second chance to make things right, and one should fight for something that really matters. But what if you’re not ready to accept what life has to offer? When Anayra bounced back into my life again, all she wanted was a forever with me, but why should I give her a second chance?
I will neither Forgive nor Forget because pain is my last link to you & I’ll never dissolve that link and get free. I will dig two graves for us!!

Anayra
My life as Aanyra Shekhawat was a perfect fairy tale- surrounded by the luxuries of life in the protection of my royal family... all my life, I waited for my Prince Charming to come on a white horse. I imagined that my life would be magical, and like Cinderella, Aurora or Ariel, I would also fall in love with a boy, which would be the happiest moment of my story. Alas, it took me just one day to unlearn the messages spread to me through my favorite childhood stories.
The guilt of betraying my fiancé or, I should say, my legally wedded husband...the pain and shame of destroying my family's reputation and bringing upon a public humiliation for Aatish's family were inexplicable. I couldn’t forgive myself for what I had done to so many people... I didn’t deserve any redemption or forgiveness. When I returned, Aatish was no more mine. Accepting the bitter truth that the man I loved the most was all set to marry another woman was like an excruciating burn. Thinking about my future without Aatish was devastating. It is said that the payment of sins may get delayed, but it cannot be avoided. Before I could realize, the time to repay for my sins arrived, and I happily agreed to the punishment. My mind started playing tricks… even without drugs. The pain of shame and guilt for all my actions crawled into my mind like a throbbing migraine. I wanted to sleep now!!